The central refrain of the song has puzzled casual listeners for years: "Hate me today, make mind to hate me tomorrow." On its surface, the line sounds vindictive, perhaps directed at an angry former lover. The true psychology behind the lyric is far more tragic.
Furstenfeld wrote the line as an act of twisted mercy. Deep in his addiction, he was convinced that his survival was impossible. He knew his mother and his romantic partner were exhausting themselves trying to save him from self-destruction. The lyrics articulate a toxic rationalization: if he could force his loved ones to despise him, their grief would vanish once he finally slipped away.
It is an apology masquerading as hostility. By begging them to hate him, he was attempting to break their emotional investment. The verses catalogue the collateral damage of his behavior, lying about being sober, tracking filth into the house, and promising improvements he had no intention of delivering. The chorus is the breaking point where the narrator asks the victim to give up on him entirely.